PART Two
Chapter 14
For some of them, it had always been dark. Angel had lived here in the pens his entire 16 years. He’d been herded like cattle, naked and afraid from pen to pen. He’d been crushed into spaces that were too tight with strangers for long weeks, scrabbling for whatever food was left for them by the horrible guards. The Mes’t’rith. The hungers, the young ones called them. And there were always new young ones.
Sometimes, with no schedule they could discern, the guards would put them in the larger pens, the hunting pens, and they would sort them out, men and women, and they would take them away in pairs, and bring them back, and 9 months later there were always children. The mothers with children got taken to a different pen, and held there until the littles could walk on their own. Then they would come back to the holding pen, screaming and wailing. Knowing that it was time for them and their children to be hunted again. To either bear more children for their horrible captors or to die as their meals knowing that the children they created were just another snack, too.
Angel had been to the breeding pen 4 times. He wondered if one of the littles tucked in the corner learning nursery rhymes and old stories was his. There was no way to be sure. They didn’t breed them to just one woman. They were shoved into the tiny stalls one after another after another until they couldn’t perform anymore, and the women lay in the stalls until all the men were done.
The first time Angel had gone he’d been sickened, horrified, even though he had been warned. Even though they all knew. He couldn’t perform. They’d sent him to a different pen then. And he’d learned that there were worse things than the breeding stalls. There were far worse things they could do to him than force him down a row of crying women grunting for a brief moment and crying. So much worse.
He didn’t know how long he’d been here, not exactly. The old man they called the timekeeper had died a long time ago, and the thing he wore on his wrist, the...watch was still on his him when they dragged him off into the dark and fed. Now they kept time by the feedings. Each time the Mes’t’rith fed, the carved a new number into the wall of whichever pen they were currently in, and they all said the number together. The current number when the gate opened was one thousand and forty-nine.
From the sounds, there were only three that entered the pens. A feeding, then. Angel looked out across the pen and shrieked, fake panic in his voice. All five of the voices he expected shrieked back. Choruses of screams swept across the room as the Mes’t’rith scraped their way across the stone floors. Groups of humans darted madly across their path, making them lash out and swipe, to grab their meals until they encountered slower prey. The screams as they dug in their terrible claws were real, and the tears that ran down Angel’s face were real and hot. He waited until the gate closed and prayed to the My’kl that they would wait until they were farther away to feed. He got his wish. He waited almost three thousand heartbeats before he wailed, a terrible lost noise. 5 echoes came back to him, and he began to move across the pens purposefully.
He was the best at getting across the pens. He’d always been able to find his way in the dark. He could hear better than the rest of them, they said. He thought he just listened better. Or maybe it was his age. He’d never tried to use his eyes. He was one of the darkborn. The oldest of them by almost 2 years. He’d been one of the first born, and of those he’d been born with, the other three were dead. Only one was eaten. Jase. He’d been brave and stood in front of a smaller child. Tenny had died of a broken leg. Something had gone wrong in his body from it and he died in pain they didn’t know how to fix. Jill had died on the way to the breeding stalls. She’d panicked and fought and the Mes’t’rith holding her snapped her neck when he slammed her against the wall.
Angel shook his head. He didn’t have time or energy to reminisce. He made his way across the center of the pen heading directly for the last of the wails. Only he and the 5 captains ever crossed the center when the pen was closed. Everyone else took the wall path. If he could see, he knew that he would see a ring of people, a leg’s length from the wall, all the way around the edges of the pen. The wall was reserved for running and emergencies, and the center...well, the center was where they came.
He got to the group quickly and quietly, homing in on the small wheeze of Jared’s breath. The rest of the pen had moved a side to make room, and Angel pulled them out from the ring toward the center a single long pace. “Who did we lose? Any non-volunteers? Any injuries?” The long wait hadn’t been random. It had given them all time to get reports from the ring in whispers as each of the captains ran along the inside of the ring, taking roll, listening for reports from the people there.
“They took old Tom, Marta, and...they got Amy.”
“How in hell did they get Amy? She wasn’t supposed to be out there?”
“One of the littles panicked and ran. She caught them, but they caught her.”
Angel took a deep breath. “Well, we’ll need another teacher. Find out who’s best at maths and make sure they know how to find the classes.”
He heard John take a breath to object and cut him off. “I know what you’re going to say, and I don’t care. Everyone does school. One day, when My’kl comes, we’ll need to know things again. We’ll need to be ready. Who’s got the training today?”
Robby coughed. “I do.”
“Good. Work the running drills and the stopdroproll.”
There was a long pause before Robby answered. “Ok, Angel.”
“Everyone else, check the scavenge. After their last feeding we had enough for a week. Make sure it’s all there. Then go sleep. Only 3 of them fed. They’ll be back soon.”
He waited until he heard 4 of them leave, and then turned his back on the remaining captain and walked to the gate. He knew Summer followed him, but he didn’t stop her. She could easily make it to the wall from here, and back to her section from there. She was almost the best of them. She waited until he got to the gate, where everyone would be farthest from them before she spoke. “I’m sorry.”
He shrugged, the gesture meaningless in the dark.
“I can hear when you do that, you know.”
He shrugged again.
“She did what she was supposed to do. She saved the little. It wasn’t her fault.”
He didn’t answer. She knew what he would say anyway. “Angel. Accidents happen. You can’t expect the littles-”
His hissed cutoff was harsh. “I can. I do. I *have to.* We can’t afford to lose primes. Right now, there’s an elder in there who’s eating another meal that should have been hers. You know how it works. You know.”
She sighed. “I know. Where are you going now?”
“Pen Seven. If they keep this pattern, they should be going there next. I’ll be back before Second Whisper”
She didn’t say ‘be careful’. She laid a hand on his shoulder for a second, then walked her way along the gate to the wall. Angel waited a minute til there was silence, then laid on his back, and pulled himself painfully along the floor below the hinge. He made a note to workout his shoulders less. Any wider and they’d start to catch and bleed. And the Mes’t’rth could ALWAYS smell blood. As he loped his way down the corridor, he prayed again, although not all of his pens would have known it for a prayer. It was a simple silent plea. MY’KL, WHERE ARE YOU?”
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At the academy, Master Leinin looked up sharply from his work at the knock on the door. “What?” he snapped. The door opened slightly and a small blonde head poked through. “There’s a message from The House, Master.”
Leinin collapsed his work in a vicious discharge of energy that made the boy’s hair stand on end. In the SimLight, Leinin could “see” it flare. “Sorry boy. Let’s go.” SimLight was the miracle of the fall. A combination of tactile, infrared, and electric senses passed directly to the brain via the now useless optic nerve. It was the pinnacle of magecraft. It was low-cost, it was easy to conceal, it was a miracle. It was, of course, something Michael’s father had done. leinin silently corrected himself. My’kl. If one of the children heard him, there’d be whispers. If the adults heard him, there’d be outrage. They’d built a society on a hope. And even if it was a false hope, it was keeping them alive.
They made their way down the corridor to the ridiculously shielded workroom at the end, where so many years ago, leinin had showed the boys the secret of atoms. He braced himself for a minute and placed his good hand against the door. Instantly, he was sucked into the room. He had to blink his eyes clear of tears several times before he could make sense of the room. It was glowing again. The damned machine was emitting light enough to bind someone who COULD see. leinin’s eyes, unused daily for months, were in agony.
“Turn it down, dammit. I’m here.”
The light dimmed to a barely tolerable dimness.
Brent’s voice echoed from the center of the bizarre machine MIchael had sent here from the tower. It had been years before leinin even had a chance to look at the damn thing, and it had taken another year of constantly interrupted study before he understood. It was a radio of sorts. It could communicate to anywhere as long as you know where “anywhere” was.
“Sorry, Master. It’s...It’s Gryth. I think you’d better come.”
leinin cringed. Last time Gryth had sent for him they’d had a terrible fight, ending with Gryth leaving bloody bite marks on his throat. “What did I do this time?”
“It’s not you. It’s him. He’s...he’s hurt. I think he’s dying.”
Leinin ripped open a portal with a speed he could never have imagined before the fall. For all his competence then, he was a scholar. There were no pure scholars anymore. Mages were healers and warriors now. And he was one of the best. Even with one arm, he could out-cast and out-fight every other warlock on the planet. He’d faced down as many Mes’t’rth as any...except Gryth.
When he stepped through into The House, he was surprised to see Brent alone in the portal room. “Is Paul OK?” The men were never alone anymore. Something had happened during a raid, years ago, and Paul had nearly been taken. The scars that it left on his body were terrible, but his mind... he couldn’t bear to be alone, ever.
“He’s with Gryth. We found some old healer texts last month in the study, and he’s trying something complicated. Gryth is awake with him.” He wasn’t looking at Leinin. He was almost jogging for the stairs, eager to get back to Paul before something could go wrong and panic might set in. Leinin walked as quickly as he could, jogging in fact, to keep up with Brent’s longer legs.
When they got to the room, Leinin swore. The old Hrysthaal was grey from head to toe. All the color in his fur was gone, and his claws were dull. Huge jagged rents marred the flesh on his sides, tearing through hundreds of older, smaller scars. The smell of ruptured bowel filled the room. Gryth was snarling at Paul through a tangled blaze of spell constructs. Finally the ancient creature reached out and grabbed Paul’s hand through the constructs, bringing the whole mess to a halt, dissipating on the air with a painful crack of sound.
“Stop, cub. It’s time. I’m older than you can imagine. I know what death is. I’m not afraid.”
“We need you, master.”
Gryth managed a grimace that could have been mistaken for a sad smile.
“You need Michael. And the child. They’re coming. My wife and Randall and the child. They’re coming. So soon.” Brent turned away. He’d heard it so many times before. For years after they lost the ship, nearly a decade, Gryth had promised they would come back. None of them believed it anymore. There were facts to face. Michael was dead. Randall and Ra’Cha, and if there even was a baby, all of them were gone. Lost somewhere in the cosmos without a navigator or a pilot. My’Kl was a myth they’d started together, to help the people keep hope. But it was a lie.
Leinin sighed. “Archmage. Please.”
Gryth snarled louder. “Shut up. Listen. 17 years. It’s been 17 years. And we’re still here. She hasn’t killed us all yet. She hasn’t even chased all of us into her damn pens. A hundred thousand humans are free because of my hope. You can treat it like a myth if you want, but they will come. And the world will change. And maybe, just maybe, Leinin, there’s a chance you’ll smile before you die.”
Leinin shook his head.
Gryth waved a hand at him frustrated. “But I’m not here for that. Come here. Give me your hand”
Leinin approached the bed warily. “If you’re going to do something terrible to it, I’d prefer you didn’t. I’ve only the one that works these days.” But he held out his hand.
Gryth seized it in his own, and there was a blaze of spellcraft as a medallion dropped onto Leinin’s palm. “There. You’re the archmage now. Responsibilities, privileges, etc. Blah Blah. Oath.”
Spellcraft swung out from the medallion and snared Lenin blinding him momentarily as the spells overtook the gentler frame of the SymLight. He swore. He recast SymLight instinctively, irritated, then shook himself as he realized what had occurred. He bowed to Gryth. “Master.”
“When...when it’s time. Make the cub take it. He won’t want to. But do it anyway. Promise.”
Leinin struggled to spit out words. “Master...”
“Promise!”
He closed his eyes. In the end, he made the promise to an old dying man to comfort him, knowing he would never have to try.
“I promise.”
Gryth nodded, then collapsed back against the wall. “Cubs. I’m proud of you. Be good pack for each other. Hunt well.”
Leinin had been to hundreds of deathbeds. Maybe thousands now. He’d seen the signs more times than he could count. He watched as the old Hrysthaal’s chest slowed, then stopped. He reached out to close the old man’s eyes and gasped in surprise. The Ancient’s body faded into a glimmer, a tiny sphere, shining brightly against the room’s darkness. It rocketed upward, passing through the roof of the house and disappearing into the night. Leinin swore that just for a second, as his eyes followed it, he could see a second light blaze in the night in answer. Then it was gone.
He looked around the room. “I’ll tell the council you two are on leave for a while. Take a few days to pull yourself together.” He paused. “How did it happen?”
Brent answered. “The Northwest pens. He was leading the raid and this giant mother of a Mes’t’rith, biggest I’ve ever seen, popped up right in the middle of the pen. Gutted him in a second. He hurt it, but I don’t think he killed it. We pushed everyone through the portal and ran.”
“How many did we save?”
“412. They’re getting low on supplies. They’ll start raiding soon. It’s time to push everyone back to the shelters.”
“Any...” he choked on the words.
Paul answered, voice soft. “No San, no sign of Michael. It’s just us.”
Leinin nodded. He hadn’t expected otherwise, but somehow, every time they came back, he hoped. Hope was a bastard.
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Ra’cha gasped and collapsed to the deck. Randall rushed to her, but before he could even get close, Gabriel was there. He swept her up in his arms and darted down the corridor in flight, headed for the bedbay, almost faster than Randall could see. He heard Ra’cha’s voice from the far down the corridor before he even got to the door. “No! The flight deck. Quickly!”
Randall had time to flatten himself against the wall as Gabriel flared back past him, trailing starlight and music in his wake. He bolted after them, letting his wings carry him along Gabriel’s path, drawing energy from his starlight. He rushed onto the flight deck to see Gabriel place Ra’Cha gently in the Pilot’s chair. She turned and snarled at them. “Both of you. Strap in. Now.”
They didn’t bother to disobey. The handful of times Ra’Cha had pushed to the flight deck before had been nearly catastrophic. The last had left the old ship crippled, dangling in space, only the main nave drive and live support functions working. As Randall buckled in, he gasped in surprise. A bright light rushed toward them, blazing a trail of ethereal energy against the endless black. It took him a moment to realize it was on a collision course.
Randall looked to his left to make sure Gabriel was strapped in. He needn’t have worried. Gabriel was locked in his straps, staring raptly at the viewscreen, teeth bared in what Randall was pretty sure was a smile. His wings were glowing softly behind him, and his fists clenched and released with anticipation.
“Are you prepping for battle or a miracle?”
Gabriel turned to look at him and flashed him a huge grin that made Randall’s breath catch. It was so much like Michael’s smile it hurt. Randall realized suddenly that Gabriel’s hair was like his father’s now, too, framing his face in a familiar riot of curls. Randall’s breath caught in his chest. “It’s OK, Dad. It’s all about to change. You’ll see. We’re going to go get father now.”
Randall smiled a little sadly. Gabriel had always had faith. From the moment he could speak, he knew it would change. He knew Michael was alive. When Randall asked, he always gave the same answer. “I can hear him. He says he loves you.” Randall had floated years on that faith before he stopped hoping for himself. The smile he showed Gabriel was a lie. Gabriel knew, but it was a promise between them. Hope was never surrendered, doubt was never spoken. They trained together with one purpose. To prepare for the return of a husband Randall knew was gone, and a father Gabriel had never seen.
By the time the source of the light reached them, they were both facing forward. It was Randall who noticed that Ra’Cha was crying. It only took a second for him to understand. “Wife.” The word echoed through the room. “I’ve found you. I’ve set the beacon. Follow it home. Go. Get our cub. It’s time.”
“Husband. I’m coming. Help me?”
There was no audible answer, but the light swirled around her, and in her until she glowed. She looked back over her shoulder once to make sure they were strapped in, then set her hand on the control sphere, and the sphere started to pulse with light. Randall gasped as the map flickered to life, and then, in a movement he couldn’t define, the map changed. The map faded, and it with it it the light faded from their eyes. In the still light that had infused the ship since the day of Gabriel’s birth, Randall, unstrapped himself and ran to Ra’Cha’s side. He knelt next to her and held her hand. Her breathing was soft and uneven. “Ra’Cha? Captain?”
“Hush, cub. We’re here.”
‘“Is it true? Is he here?”
Ra’Cha looked at him sadly. “I can’t tell. But I know this. If he is here, you will save him. And he will save all of us. Go to the shuttle. I’ve set a course to take you to the House. You’ll get there safely. Then go get the boys and find the cub. If anyone can it’s you. Follow your heart. Follow Gabriel’s song. Go.”
“But...you have to come. I can’t fly the-”
“Hush. I’m done. My husband is gone, and it’s my time. Go make me proud. Save the pack. Save everything.”
Randall lurched forward into a hug. He let go when Gabriel laid his hand gently on his shoulder. He turned his back and headed down the corridor to the hangar. Behind him he heard the soft musical murmur of his son’s voice. Long before he got the the hangar, he felt Gabriel arrive beside him.
“Dad.”
“Don’t, Gabriel. Not right now. Just let me get there and do what we need to do.”
The light in the ship dimmed for a long moment while Gabriel took a breath. “It’s her choice. It’s been so long-”
Randall rounded on him, temper hot. “I said not now. I know you mean well. I know you love her, and I know you think you’re helping right now. But this is one of those things you just don’t seem to get yet. I’m not sad or upset because I don’t understand, or I don’t acknowledge her choice, or that she doesn’t deserve her rest. I’m sad for me, because I’ve been out here with her for 17 years, and I love her a little. She’s family and I’ll miss her. That’s all. I get to have that. I get to grieve. You don’t get to sing it away.”
He paused. “...just...go get the shuttle ready. I need to get some things from my cabin. I’ll be there in a minute.”
Gabriel looked at him with regret, then turned and soared down the corridor. As usual, the corridor, absent Gabriel, was a little dimmer.
“Was I too harsh?” He asked the question to an empty hall. “Raising him like this, he’s missed so much. And he has to understand. He can’t be an alien. ...he has to love him.” The last words were whispered.
There was a murmur in the air, a sound almost beyond hearing. Randall answered it. “You’re sure?”
A single note chimed against his wings, flaring his stars. “You swear to me. You swear, goddammit, that he’s alive. You swear it. No more hope. No more trust. You swear it to me. Because this wasn’t the plan. He was supposed to be here.”
If Gabriel had been there, he would have been startled to see his dad’s face. Emotion raced across his face, anger and sadness warring for room on the normally calm face.
“YOU PROMISE ME, DAMMIT, JO!” He dropped to his knees, tears running wild. Gabriel would been even more surprised if he had seen the soft glow and the warm soft song that slowly enveloped Randall where he knelt. The murmur resolved into words, barely audible, but clear and certain. “We promise, child. He lives. Go find him. Bring us to him. Bring him back to us.”
Randall pulled himself to his feet with an effort. “Tribunal help us all if you’re wrong.”
He reflected sourly as he made his way to the hangar, that it was a lot more comforting to call on the Tribunal if you hadn’t met him.